First off, I want to say I know it has been a while and for that, I must apologize. Pregnancy has been the hardest secret I have ever had to keep. Therefore, weekly updates have been very hard to write. The reason for this is because I couldn’t really talk about what I was doing! My days were consumed with feeling exhausted, feeling nauseous, and scrolling through apps trying to find out what my little one was up to that day. I truly hope that I didn’t lose anyone that was following our little family. I promise I will make up for it. My weekly updates are going to look a little bit different from what they were previously. My weekly updates before consisted of how I was keeping up with my weight loss goals. Now that I am carrying a little one with me, my priorities have shifted a bit. My weekly updates will consist of how my pregnancy is going week-to-week and problems that I am facing and overcoming. Along with these topics, I will cover developmental milestones and any testing or ultrasounds we have had done that week. Lots of posts to come in the future and I’d love to get on with this one!
This week has been so much easier than weeks past. My nausea has subsided quite a bit, my energy has gone up, and I feel more like myself! This week has just been a huge relief, the past twelve weeks, it was truly hard to get out of bed. At the beginning of the year, I was wanting to lose weight, make this year my year and I couldn’t figure out why the heck I was so darn tired. Well, I am making this year my year, however, in a very different way. Along with feeling more like myself this week, I also have felt more confident. I don’t know if there are any plus sized mommas out there, but I am one myself. Our little blessing wasn’t a planned one and I obviously was trying to make a change in my health before I wanted to start a family. In the beginning, that was really hard for me. After all, in the beginning of pregnancy all of the things that you see are making sure that you’re at a healthy weight. They tell you if you’re overweight it can cause big problems for baby. Immediately, I felt guilty and scared; I felt badly that I wasn’t ‘healthy’ enough for my baby, that my BMI was too large and that immediately I would be categorized as high risk and have a hard pregnancy. This week has been a real break through for me. I feel as though my confidence in myself is higher than ever. I have never been real confident with how I look, as long as I could remember I was always the slightest bit overweight and very much so self conscious about it. This week, I didn’t look in the mirror and think, “wow, I need to lose weight” rather, I looked in the mirror and saw my belly, more bloated than usual, and I was happy with the person I saw looking back at me. I have always been a firm believer in everything happening for a reason, that when one door closes, a window opens. Although it may not have been the best of timing, this window opened for us and we are absolutely thrilled. Along with feeling more confident and comfortable in my skin, I got to see my little one for the second time. We went in for our Down’s Syndrome screening and we got to spend a lot of time looking at our little one. It was so much fun to see our baby kicking off the sides of my uterus and sliding back down then kicking off again. Let me tell you, I have a very hyperactive child already! It’s so amazing to me that even this early on you can see the personality that this little one has. For example, our ultrasound tech was trying to get the very last measurement she needed for our screening and this child would not cooperate. The baby kept turning away from her laying on it’s side, completely uninterested. It was early in the morning though, I contend the baby was very confused that I was even out of bed at that hour. We got four great ultrasound photos of our little one and it looks like Little Baby P is a thumb sucker, which just melted my heart. Dapper dad thinks that during the ultrasound he saw little boy parts on the baby. I didn’t personally see them, but I have argued that Baby P is a boy from day one! We are very much looking forward to the next time we get to see our little one when we hit twenty weeks and get to find out if we are expecting a little boy or a little girl. I’m so excited to see what week 13 will bring. Little Baby P is the size of a lime this week.